#motherfeelings

 

  Got my first true real feel of pure excitement to get to hold you and get to know you and your beautiful soul. Kenzie Kat I love you💗

#pregnant & #confident

                Pregnant & confident                

 It's taken me awhile to start to feel comfortable with my body changes. I have always had weight issues growing up, so with the first 5-8 pounds I really could feel the difference. I am not use to being at this high of weight for my small size. 

 Things I did to help myself feel better and more confident was continuing to work out. Laying out for small periods, when I am tan I feel better, I feel golden!😊 I give into my guilty food cravings j just do in portions. I could eat a lot healthier but eating in portions allows me to still feel good and get what I want!  But what helped the most was I have a really supportive and loving man. B helps bring me up when I'm really down about myself and my looks. The best feeling is him loving how I look and making me feel sexy. That's the best feeling in the world.❤️✨✨

Our little family

 Had the most amazing weekend with B. It was so nice being able to spend time together just the two of us, 3 weeks feels like a life time not getting to see him. But sadly the weekend ended and he is back out in training. I already miss him. Will be another 3 weeks till I see him, and when I do see him we get to celebrate our baby girl and have our baby shower!💞 We are having the baby shower very early since shortly into May B will be getting ready to deploy. Felt like we had so much time before he has to leave and time has gone by so fast each day goes by faster and faster. I am so proud of him and all the hard work he had been doing, not just for us but for our future and for our baby girl. He is by far the most dedicated, hard working man I know. I love him so much, I just hope the time while he's gone goes flys by. I selfishly want to keep him here. I have known since we got together that he would be leaving for a 7 month deployment but now that we are having a family and the day is creeping up on us it breaks my heart. I put on a brave face and hide my tears, it's not his fault he is leaving, it's his job it's what he has been working so hard for. It's selfish of me to even try and stand in the way of his hard work or to make him feel bad about leaving. It all will be worth it in the end, this will be one the hardest obstacles I have had to face in my life.

 I just can't help but worry, I just want him to come home and be able to meet our baby girl. I never want a last kiss or a last laugh, I don't want him to be a memory that our daughter will never have I want him to teach her and watch her grow. We both are so lucky to have such an amazing man in our lives. I love you B. Please come home to baby K and myself. 

 Whenever I start to think to deep into what is coming up I think back to when we very first met, when he got me drunk, when we went on our first adventure, the first time we kissed and the first time he said he loved me. I smile just thinking of him. This weekend was extra amazing, we went on a date night, had a Saturday filled with hanging out at my cousins new place laying by the pool in the perfect Arizona sun with lots of fun people, drinks and B even taught me how to play the paino. Of course he taught me one of our favorites a Matt & Kim song.❤️ After he accompanied me to the Lucky Man Concert at the Tempe Beach Park, we saw The Used, The Offspring and of course my favorite A Day to Remember! It was so great! Music is a big part of both of our lives, it brought us together and it was so awesome being able to enjoy one my favorite bands with him. And of course we enjoyed Easter Sundah with my family and did our registry for baby K. 

I have no idea why or how I got so lucky with getting to be with someone like B but I couldn't be happier. He makes me excited for the future, he lifts me up and brings out the best in me. I love you B, if you are to ever see this im sure you already know how much you mean to me and I'm sure you probably think I'm cheesy but I don't care I'll be cheesy all day baby! 😊 

Shopping

   Oh goodness! For the first time I went and looked around at some baby items such as bedding, strollers and clothes and I have shopped for baby items many times and always love it and it's so hard to pick between all the cute tutus and pink little bows! But today was extra hard! My mom and I got little meatball some cute outfits to be a little pink sailor so she can be a sailor like her daddy!💗

We also got some pink anchor sheets and just some adorable onesies! I wanted it all! Ever since I found out we are having a girl I want everything pink! My wallet just can't afford the adorable pink baby clothes! And of course baby also got her first pair of Nike! So she can be like mommy and daddy! ✔️ This is getting very exciting!

#itsagirl #babygirl

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 That's right! We are expecting a baby girl!! Couldn't be more excited to meet our little princess! 

Short and sweet post! Just had to share the excitement! Today was a good daub. I can't wait to send the pictures I took with pink balloons to B so he can see! I wish I could tell him in person but I am just so excited had to share the news wih him! Shall let you know how he responds to having a baby girl to protect! 😊💗

Baby news update!! #babynews #girl #newmom #hipmomtobe

 

   Ahhhhh!!! Nerves are flying!! Finished editing these amazing pictures my girlfriend took on my iPhone in her backyard just so fun and turned out so well! Just shows a great picture doesn't need a big fancy camera or a super fancy loactions or thousands of dollars for a "photographer" be yourself, be creative and just have fun with your pictures and photoshoots! 

                                             

 BUT... Back to my crazy nerves! I just sent a select handful of the pictures I took at yesterday's little photo shoot, edited them and sent them to B!!! Eeek!!! I know he will be very excited and of course his usual supportie self! But I know he no WE wanted a boy and a slight moment after finding out we were having a girl I did have that small moment of disappoint, but the overwhelming happiness that filled my heart and my whole body oh knowing she was going to be perfect and she was our baby brought so much happiness and excitement to me. I hope B feels that same overwhelming happiness after im sure his worry no he has a daughter to protect! I have been glued to my email since I sent them out only 5 minutes ago which seems to be a life time! I hope he gets on a computer and can see them soon waiting to know if he has seen them out not is driving me crazy! I am not the most patient person in the world! A skill I need to master with becoming a Navy wife!❤️⚓️❤️⚓️❤️⚓️❤️⚓️❤️⚓️❤️⚓️❤️

            Out future is very bright. 

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C A L I F ☀️ R N I A #goodvibes #truelove

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 After three very long weeks apart finally got to go spend the weekend in California and see my partner in crime and the man who stole my heart!❤️ Felt so good to see his face and hold him close. Besides getting to see my bestfriend it was so nice spending the weekend surrounded by the people who love us and support us the most. Our friend-family. They are the most loving, creative and amazing group of people. We have come together and created an amazing bound, all brought together by our love for music and how it frees your soul!🎶 

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 Went to the first Crssd festival in sunny San Diego California, I have to say being pregnant and at a festival all day was a very long and tiring day! But I kept up with my wild crew and enjoyed every minute surrounded by good vibes and lots of love. Being younger and with mine and Bs relationship being not the norm ( and I like it that way) a lot of people have been the most supportive of us or us starting a family, we brush those negative people away, we know what we have and when you want something bad enough nothing can get in the way.

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 With life being a little crazy lately and being overwhelmed this weekend was exactly what I needed. I am so proud of B and how hard he works and how strong of a person he is. He makes me so proud. It will be almost three weeks again until I get to see him again, it sure isn't easy and with time getting closer and closer to him leaving my heart gets heavy with the thought of him leaving. But as soon as I see his smiling face and he puts his arms around me and holds me tight all of it goes away and in the some what near future we will no longer be separated by miles and miles between us. I can not wait for the day when I get to wake up to him every morning. I am so lucky to have such an amazing bestfriend and love like B. 

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 I have loved before, but never like this. He brings me up, always puts my first and makes me want to be the best me I can be. We know becoming parents won't be easy, and it's a little scary, but we are in this for the forever and always. I wish I could re-live the weekend all over again but the next time I get to see him will be just as amazing. We didn't get much alone time this weekend so I am looking forward to our alone time our next visit. I could lay in a bed and talk to him for hours and hours about everything, I love this outlook on life. He is one the strongest, intelligent and positive men I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I think about the first time we met all the time and how crazy it is were it has brought us. I am not a very religious person but I thank god everyday for bringing him into my life and showing me I am worthy of being loved and showing me real love exist in more than just fairytales it may not be as pretty and easy as in a fairytale but B and I.. Our story is a story of love, determination, honesty, trust and a hell of a lot of good times! I can't wait to spend my life with my bestfriend. I love you B, be safe during training I will be thinking of you every day till our little family is reunited , I will fight for you forever babe. 

❤️ forever & always